What is wrong with people?

Ok, so today we were out with the seven year old because she had a dentist appointment (more on that later). So that means that Hubs was with me.

The school parking lot is a battlefield. They installed these plastic-like speedbumps that are like a foot high.


This is bad for two reasons.

1.) Hub's face hits his control and he is rocked practically out of his wheelchair and
2.) We have a handicap van whose floor is dropped 8 inches so that Hubs can get in the van.

So that means that Hubs gets beat up and knocked around and the van gets scraped underneath. Not good.

I can drive around a few of the speed bumps. But not the whole lot. Usually when I get there the handicap parking is taken. We are talking about 4 spaces with 6 cars parked there. People park in the spaces meant for van accessibility like my hubby's van. You know where the striped lines are? Yeah, they make those parking spaces.

So, I hover, not park, around the curb of one of the parking areas. My kids aren't coming to the van where I am at (no way are they allowed to step foot in the parking lot. period) and I'm not getting down. I'm basically waiting for the first space to open up.

The woman who parks there and I sort of have this unspoken agreement. She parks there and gets her kid like in no time and then I wait and take her space when she leaves.

Well, today this van drove by really close and the woman in the passenger seat loudly said "no parking." It was a driveby reprimand.

This pissed me off for several reasons:

a.) I was not parked. My car was not in park.
b.) If you have something to say, be a woman and get down and come tell me so I can see your face as I smash it to the concrete.
c.) If you're stupid, keep your mouth shut.
d.) If you're a total asshole, you better keep moving.

I said some words of my own and life went on.

Except, when I parked, whaddaya know?

Guess who's parked on the striped lines of the handicap parking spaces?

One, guess...

If you guessed it was the hypocrite loser who yelled "No parking" to me.

Ding ding ding, you're a winner!

She even had the audacity to stare my van down as she walked by. 'Cept I didn't know it was her until she climbed in the van...in which case. I smiled sweetly as I looked over in disgust and said in a loud sing song voice "NO PAR-KING!"

What do you do?

What do you do when you have 5 kids

who behave like animals?
who lie?
who steal from you?
who break things because they are physically able to?
who keep secrets?
who are boy crazy?
who are hateful?
who are disrespectful?
who are filthy?
etc...etc...

I am at the end of my rope.

My sister did a good job ruining these kids and I don't think I can fix them.

We have simple basic rules. They choose not to keep them.

Grounding them, taking away activities, time out, none of it works.

They say it takes time. It's been a year and there is no progress. What if they don't change? What if I end up like my mother? I'm already half way there and it's only been a year.

I feel like if the kids stay like this, they will kill me.

I'm not getting any help from social workers or the therapist. They don't seem to have any help to give. I don't know what my rights are and it's like because I am related I have no rights.

I've tried all that I know how to try. I'm not asking for too much.

All I ask is that they be honest, try hard at everything they do and take care of things.

It's too hard for them. It's easier for them to be devious, nasty and lazy.

I've made up incentive programs with rewards and everything for them. They don't care. I have mini parties with fun foods and movies or games. They don't care. I've taken everything from them and stripped things down to essentials. They don't care.

What's a person to do?

Can I Still Call Myself A Blogger???

Really???



I know I still have a menu to plan. I have like 4 tackles that I've done and never posted yet. Tips...I've 4 of those too.



First it started without being able to use my right arm. I couldn't lift it or move it much cause I sort of wanted to die when I did. Finally that went away and Hubs bought me this wonderful gift I *still* haven't told you about and yet...still am using right now.



Then I was hooked on two different games that kept me going because I'm obsessive and HAD to finish them in one sitting.



Then my left arm wouldn't work. Same deal as the right but now on the left.



Which brings me to the big blow up of 2007...



Picture this...



Yesterday morning, we seem to be moving along fine. I send the kids out to the van so I can take them to school. I lock up, so I'm the last one leaving.



I go out to the van...silence. Kids sitting in a row facing the front with smirks.



W.T.F !?!



You might be saying "What's wrong with that?"



Not these kids. Spawn of the Devil Herself. They have been awful, terrible, the worst.



I ask what is going on.



The worst of the bunch of the girls pipes up "Nothing, we just changed seats."



The oldest was not in the van, she was opening the gates for me (oh, yeah...did I mention I have gates now? ARGH...so much unshared!)



That child...if she is awake she is lying.



I looked at the oldest of those who were in the car and she pointed to the one that just told me nothing. I asked what she had done. She said that the Evil One had found presents in the back and showed them...



SHIP!!!*



I had bought a ton of stocking stuffers and totally forgot to bring them in the house, some gifts, etc...



This little witch searched the van when she got in and then went through the stuff and made sure she showed them all.



I.HIT.THE.ROOF.



I can't believe I had forgotten those things because I was soooooo excited about being done and the things I had found. I got about $300 worth of stuff at the Dollar store for 7 kids for only $98.



Disney Princesses, Spiderman, Winnie the Pooh. We are talking good stuff.



It was the last straw. It was so bad I told them it was all going back and I almost even told them there was no Santa!


I can't even begin to describe what they have been putting us through this past month and the boy. I'm not sure what they are going to do with him because I no longer want to adopt him. Even Hubs is at the point where he's saying the boy has to go too if he doesn't change.



He needs help...they aren't getting it for him and my hands are tied. I don't know what to do. Bt the final straw is him carving into his dresser and then attempting to stab two of his sisters with his toothbrush. I can't have a kid like that, he kill us all in our sleep.



Instead, I finally told them I've had enough. I've always told them if they didn't want to be with me then they needed to tell their social worker and I'd have no problem with them going because I wasn't going to try to live with kids who didn't want to be here.



But what do I do when they are hating us for everything their mother and father did to them?



I just leveled with them and told them the truth.



I know what it's like for people to lie to you and tell you bad things about your parents. I was told my mom didn't love me and that she is a snake. To an extent they are both true. But when they were said to me at the age of 5-8 they were said out of hate for my mother.



I told the kids that their mother signed them to me. She signed the paper to send them all to me and that I had agreed that I would help her until she finished her classes and got them back, but she didn't finish her classes. As soon as they came to me she quit. We are stuck with each other whether we like it or not. Whatever problems they have with her are with her and that hubs and I were just trying to help. We didn't take them from anyone. We never planned to have them forever. So, if someone said I took them or "stole" them from their mom it is a lie.



I'll probably get in trouble for telling them that. But did I tell them their mom took her new bf to Disneyland after she had her rights terminated? no. Did I tell them that she's shacking up with any guy who will screw her trying to have replacement kids? no.



I explained to them that I am all they have. I am the only responsible person in their whole entire family who they will give them to. I even explained how I am not entirely related to them either. That's why I am the only one who can keep them.



It was just an awful morning, my arm still wasn't working. I don't know what to do with the stuff now since surely "Santa" can't bring the same stuff that was in the van. Right?



I'm just heartbroken, worn down and tired. All those people who said they didn't want me to wear myself out have disappeared. For the first time in my life I have been asking for help and there is none to be found. Figures.



Today my arm works. I have to make five dentist appointments, five doctors appointments. Hubs just got his flu and pneumonia shots yesterday. But we think he has a UTI so I have to run that down to the lab.



Halloween stuff is put away and Thanksgiving stuff is up. I'm starting to freak out about Christmas.



Some day soon, I hope to share with you my new Bettas. The cool gifts Hubby has given me and just stuff in general. But for now... I will post when I can what I can. (Usually when I write a post like this,I suddenly have time to post.lol)



How are you all doing?

*Have you seen the new carmax commercial?

"Are you shipping me?"

My new way of trying to cut back on my cussing.

Be Daring and Dangerous

Ok, I know this isn't my book blog but I wanted to post this here anyway...

Have you seen these books?

I've had this book for awhile and loved it. There was no way I was going to keep it from my girls.

Then along came this book, which I equally love.

This book..ah..How to negotiate a salary, how to build a scooter, famous female secret spies, chinese jump rope. There's so much!

If you have kids, these are must haves. Even if you don't they are must haves. I just had to share!

Hubs was so upset

Hubs ordered my Christmas present early. He was so proud and he boasted to me that he even paid to have it wrapped so I wouldn't know what it was until Christmas.

Halloween day, UPS delivered it to me. As they handed it to me, this is what I saw:

Um...a few of the kids were out there with me when I walked towards the house with it and I could hear them chanting and yelling Harry Potter. I told them to be quiet because Hubs was going to be upset.

I walked up to hubs and told him UPS had delivered he looked over at me and his face kinda fell. He then rolled his eyes.

I said thank you and told him I loved it and that I would tell him again at Christmas. lol

I opened the box telling him at least it's wrapped and we'll put it under the tree when we get one. We opened the box, it wasn't wrapped. He was more upset to say the least.

As for me... I got the Harry Potter Boxset for Christmas and it's awesome! The trunk is so cool too! WHOO HOOO~!

Shh..don't tell hubby. I'm saving my excitement for Christmas day.

PS. Just wait until you see what else Hubs got me...I'm using it right now!

Did you know???

Today is Hubby Cooks Dinner day. I read it in my magazine.

My Hubby is making us mushroom and steak sandwiches ( I think it's in a brown gravy) and steak fries.

He cooks often but for some reason I'm excited because there's actually a day just for him to cook. lol

Can't wait!

Images from Halloween 2007

Cookies, cookies, cookies... Yum~!
Is it a monster?


Ava

Smudge
Scrawn- after 8 years she knows the drill and just surrenders but she insists she doesn't have to enjoy it. lol Oh the shame!
Time Out
Cool projector light I've had for years and was finally able to put up this year.
Ava the Princess again.

Dellyne or UNDERDOG-she's modest
or maybe just a lil stuck up. Maybe she's just showing how tough she is.
Purries...Oh the humilation...

I think she's adorable. She was not happy.

Hope Everyone has a HAPPY and SAFE HALLOWEEN!