Maybe the fat lady hasn't sung?

I don't want to get too excited over this but it appears it may not be over with the house situation.

I think I'll know more tomorrow. But if this could work out, it might just be win-win.

I'm not holding my breath on it though.

But then again, it's not over til it's over.

Ok, so I am a little bit excited. It's what I had hoped for when we first thought of selling the house. But I know I am pushing it. But still if it could work, it's a possibility...

I truly hope this is what God had in store for us.

Sorry, I know I'm rambling but I don't want to say too much until I know more for sure.

The end...

We went to sign papers for the house. It did not go well. This company is ripping us off. We signed but we are going to call and cancel. It's a very bad loan. That means no new house. It also means a ton of new bills (inspections and appraisals for both this house and the new one) and $1000.00 earnest money lost.

Lose-Lose.

We've been frantically trying to sell this house to those people who buy your houses fast. But they just want to rip us off too. Our house is worth $135,000 and we are willing to part with it for $110,000, just to get us our down we need for the other house but these scam artists only want to pay what we owe on it or less even. We aren't in foreclosure, we aren't even behind in payments. I don't think so. You know? I mean the only thing wrong with the house is a cabinet face I broke in the master bathroom. Not to mention the fact we just put in the new flooring and paint and stuff.

I don't know what it will mean for the kids. I can not live my life the way it has been going. I have no help and if I can't even seperate them...

I just don't know.

House Update

We finally got the call to sign and close on this house we are currently living in today.

We are supposed to close on the other house on Monday.

I've been reluctant to say anything about the whole stressful situation because I won't believe it until I have the keys in my hot little hand and I am opening the door to the new house without a realtor.

I can't even begin to describe the stress.

It all came to a head last week before I started reading Twilight. I had some Girl Scout issues, old house issues, new house issues, homeschool issues, money issues, behavioral issues and well you get the picture. I think it was just a last straw deal...I was having really bad chest pains that were actually making me cry from the intense pain. Hubs wanted to call an ambulance. But I don't have insurance so I didn't want to create a bigger mess and quite honestly like I told him when he asked me what if something bad was happening like a heart attack or something: "What if I don't want to stop it?"

Before anyone starts thinking I am suicidal. I am not. But I'm not exactly wanting to live forever either. I've been ready to go for a loooooooooooooooong time if you know what I mean. I don't want to be old. Call me vain.

So, I'm hoping a huge weight will be lifted once these papers are signed today.

I was thinking the other day. I still don't consider myself a grown up. I still think of myself as a child playing in a grown-up world. Does anyone else feel like that?

I look at all that I am doing and I find myself saying "who the hell do you think you are?" It could just be from my mother who pretty much told me I couldn't do anything for a long time before she opened her eyes and saw that I could. Or it could be the truth. Who the hell do I think I am?

I dunno. I don't even think. I just do. Maybe that's my problem? People ask me how I do it and I think to myself. I don't. I'm a failure. If only you knew.

But then, every once in a while I start to think, I must be doing it because how else is it getting done? Am I fretting over little things? Then self doubt comes in and I feel like that child playing in an adult world.

Am I the only one who feels this way?

I Couldn't Believe It!

Today we had the termite inspection, home inspection, and a contractor come out to the new house. Our Realtor had a closing this morning so it was just me and the guys at first. This evening I went and signed loan papers.

I was walking around the house, just rediscovering it really and I decided to go upstairs and hang out on the balcony for a bit. It's peaceful up there and since it was still mid-morning it was slightly chilly. I looked down on our yard and plotted out where I would add rose bushes since I love roses.

I snooped on the neighbors to the left and watched their waterfall in their backyard and I decided to look over at what the other neighbors had going on in their backyards. Not too bad. I had a sweater on but I didn't want to get too cold so I decided I better go back in. I reached for the door and wouldn't you know it? I was locked out...on the balcony... no realtor... no one really. The termite inspector had already left and the contractor hadn't arrived. Just me and the inspector.

I called Hubs as I gazed over the balcony. I was laughing pretty hard. I told him what I had done so he called the realtor, in the meantime, I noticed the inspector checking things out in the backyard. Thank goodness I remembered his name. I called down to him and he looked around down there. I called that I was up on the balcony and that I had locked myself out, he chuckled and said he'd be up.

I called Hubs back to let him know it was ok. The whole time I am cracking up and soooo embarrassed. The thought had crossed my mind that it could be locked but when I checked it, it didn't seem like it was.

When the inspector got up the stairs (there's the main flight of stairs to the second floor and then a smaller set of stairs from the second floor that leads up to this particular bedroom) he came with the contractor. As the contractor was introducing himself, his phone rang. It was my realtor. She was calling to see if he could "rescue" me. I heard him tell her that he thought I was ok and was just talking to me. Em-barr-assing. lol

The inspection came back "phenomenal". He found the homeowner's binder and all the documentation for everything: alarm system, appliances, flooring, EVERYTHING in the kitchen island drawers. The people who owned the house before kept immaculate records and actually left them behind!

It's bittersweet, I start to let myself get excited but then I try to put myself in check. Our house hasn't closed yet. Frankly, I am pissed. The woman who is working it is L-A-Z-Y and she keeps lying to us. We were supposed to be done by the end of this month but now she insists she said "closing" by the end of the month. I don't get her. She says we will be done before we even have to worry about making a November house payment but hello! It's due the first of November and if today was the last day to get them in before funding--how does she figure?

I think I'll just breathe easier when this house has closed. We have less than 3 weeks to get it wrapped up. It's stressing me out. If the people would just get off their asses. This should have been done this week(actually, three weeks ago). I've had to be on her constantly- phone calls and e-mail and she actually has the audacity to write me back in caps. I will be writing a post about them--name and all when everything is all said and done so anybody out there can avoid them.

*sigh* Less than three weeks.

Why I *Heart* My Realtor

This whole house selling and buying thing has been so stressful. I'm telling you, when I bought this house it was very similar to buying a car or something at the local store.

I saw three houses before this one, on the same block, and when I saw this one all I said is "We'll take it!' and it was ours. Sure we signed papers but we didn't go back and forth with offers and we didn't have all the waiting to hear from so and so.

So this time out it's been a totally different experience. Totally.

I didn't have a Realtor last time. Well, no, not really. There was a guy we had met when house searching. He showed us the houses and then stepped out of the picture. Which was fine. We didn't know a Realtor did all kinds of stuff.

Our Realtor has been excellent. She's worked really hard for us and pushed to get us everything we need and want. I have had so much fun meeting with her to see different houses. I don't know if it's just the Realtor experience, but her and I start talking about decorating and layout, etc... For instance, with the current house we were there for like three hours and we even went into decorating for Christmas (How the hell DO you hang Christmas lights on stucco?).

But what prompted this post was a conversation I had with her yesterday, I can't even remember what it was about but she made me laugh so hard my belly hurt (in a good way). She was talking about something or other to do with the house and if it didn't get down on time (or something ) we would be AOL.

I believe she meant SOL but anyone who's ever dealt with AOL would know that it's practically the same thing! She didn't catch that she had said it but man,the more I thought about it the harder I laughed. Even today when it pops into my mind I chuckle. So does Hubs. But hey, we are both computer people so maybe that's why it hits a funny bone with us.

Either way, I needed that laugh and it just made me like my Realtor even more!

I Wonder When They Were Going To Tell Us

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I'm so excited!

I tried to post my show on here but for some reason it won't connect.

Anyway, I am so excited because we had our land cleared. As you can see in the show it was still in it's natural state and we had it all cleared so we can start planning the deck, swingset, garage etc...

It's so exciting to me because 1.) this is my first house of my own and 2.) It is our first really big endeavor in said house and 3.) the kids and dogs have a place to play now even if it's just cleared land.