A couple of nights ago, I almost became a puddle of tears in front of the oldest. I had to go to the bathroom because I didn't want the oldest to see.
We were in my bedroom and out of no where the oldest said that she only wants to see her bio mom to get the ashes of her little sister back if her bio mother hasn't lost them by then. I was surprised she was even thinking of her.
She told me that she's thought and thought about it and she wants to know if she gets B's ashes back if she (B's ashes) can stay here. She said "It's the only safe place I can think of where we will all be coming back to. I mean, it might not be this house by then but, home- where ever it is, you know? I know she'll be safe with you guys."
$%^&, I'm about to cry now.
Those are two huge things. Two very ginormous things.
I told her of course she could leave B's ashes here.
OMGosh!, I don't think you even need to be a RAD mom to know just how huge this is. I don't know if the oldest discussed it with the other kids but they've definitely talked about coming back here for the holidays. At 15, the oldest has taken on a lot and is slowly breaking away from being the voice for all of them but she still speaks for them when it comes to important things.
Not to belittle the situation but I've always dreamed of having that "normal" family where the kids come home for the holidays (well, mostly before they start with their own families and stuff.) and just having that place that my kids know they can always come to and find comfort and good times. I had wanted to create that with my mother and sisters but they didn't want it.
B's ashes.... such an honor and so huge, even if it never comes to pass.
We were in my bedroom and out of no where the oldest said that she only wants to see her bio mom to get the ashes of her little sister back if her bio mother hasn't lost them by then. I was surprised she was even thinking of her.
She told me that she's thought and thought about it and she wants to know if she gets B's ashes back if she (B's ashes) can stay here. She said "It's the only safe place I can think of where we will all be coming back to. I mean, it might not be this house by then but, home- where ever it is, you know? I know she'll be safe with you guys."
$%^&, I'm about to cry now.
Those are two huge things. Two very ginormous things.
I told her of course she could leave B's ashes here.
OMGosh!, I don't think you even need to be a RAD mom to know just how huge this is. I don't know if the oldest discussed it with the other kids but they've definitely talked about coming back here for the holidays. At 15, the oldest has taken on a lot and is slowly breaking away from being the voice for all of them but she still speaks for them when it comes to important things.
Not to belittle the situation but I've always dreamed of having that "normal" family where the kids come home for the holidays (well, mostly before they start with their own families and stuff.) and just having that place that my kids know they can always come to and find comfort and good times. I had wanted to create that with my mother and sisters but they didn't want it.
B's ashes.... such an honor and so huge, even if it never comes to pass.
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Wow, that is huge! So, is knowing that they have a home to come back to!
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