Breakfast of Champions

While I am waiting for my pictures to upload for my next post I thought I would share my breakfast with you.

WHOA! I just saw a new button....what is this VIDEO button....hold on. Figures, after I go through the whole setting up and uploading process over at YouTube they add it here. A day too late. lol

I ate this after my workout which is going just fine thankyouverymuch. I have lost 6 lbs in one week. Probably just because I have more energy to get around and have been getting things done.

Anyway, I was shocked at how filling it was. I guess I could've had a bigger glass of water, the frozen cherry limeade thingy only has 70 calories and the fruit...got me?

Anyway, it got me to thinking. I read something my oldest wrote to God asking him to "let [her] stay skinny."

It got me to thinking even more. I've never been on a diet. I don't eat anything diet or drink anything diet. Well, with the exception of today...I had these South Beach Diet wraps. But not because they were diet but rather because doesn't a turkey and bacon with cheese wrapped in a flour tortilla sound yummy?

I read the little note inside the box that told me if I was eating out to send back the bread basket so it wouldn't tempt me. I told DH..."the hell I would send back the bread basket." I mean our favorite restaurant brings up these warm little loaves of yummy goodness and I will eat three I tell you. Forget the steak and stuff....just bring me that bread. DH said "Oh, it's because it's part of the Atkins diet"

Me: "Whose Atkins?"

Basically...DH said no or low carbs.

I worry about the images I am showing my oldest of me and my current weight. I am overweight because I am totally stressed and do not get enough rest. I live on Coke just so I can get things done.

Am I happy about my current weight now? No. It hurts to be this weight. Will I diet? No.

I am trying to lose weight and eat healthy because DH and I have plans to have children or at least a child of our own. I don't want the doctor to chew me out and I don't want to prolong the process by having the doctor tell me I have to lose weight and eat healthy.

So, I am doing things the right way so when the time comes, DH and I can go in and start the fertility process without any delays.

Will I tell my oldest this? I don't know. I hope she sees me working out and I hope she sees me making better choices and yet still eating the things I love in moderation and I hope she sees that even though my body is a mess right now, I still love myself and do not base my self worth on what other people think and I hope that she will someday feel the same way.

Walk 2 miles...pluheeze..easy as cake...

Seriously, I must do that at the store that starts with a W like 4 times a week easy...


At least that's what I thought.

I've kept it no secret that I've gained 40 lbs er..possibly 50 lbs by now since last year. I say mainly because of lack of sleep and extreme stress not to mention an addiction to Coca Cola. I can actually feel that I am out of shape. Like gross out of shape.

I was worried about just throwing myself into working out on my machines and getting hurt so I wanted to do something slow. Walking sounded good. Walking in my house with a DVD sounded really really good. How hard can it be? It's not race walking for crying out loud.

So, off I go. I'm a little crampy and a lot PMS'y but I want to do this. Mile 1 was a breeze. It's not just walking, there are intervals of fast walking, side to side steps, and kicking and knee lifts.

When the mile 1 marker came up on the screen, I was like damn, I'm good! Not even a sweat....but somewhere near mile marker 2. I lost it with the woman on the screen. I was in the middle of what felt like 10 minutes of straight knee lifts when I heard..."cut the chit chat bitch and count." I saw the guy on the screen tell her to count...and I realized...*I* am the one who just called this woman on the dvd a bitch.

My legs felt like lead weights, but my back felt like it was being torn from the bottom up lifting my legs and just like I am trying to justify it now, I was telling myself she deserved it and I'm not strange for yelling at my dvd. After all she said 4 more like 54 more ago but she kept talking and joking like she's clever and witty AND HEY! Even the guy on the screen with her told her to count already.

I think they anticipated that this woman could work a nerve because also included in the dvd is the same work out with her voice muted out and louder music. I wil be using that one from now on.