I wasn't feeling all so great in the wee hours of last night and this morning and I was thinking I was going to be sick. I still feel off. But I feel compelled.
Compelled to clean my house and start off 2009 with a bang. My mom had this friend who would pack her suitcase for new years because she believed that she would get to travel a lot if she did.
Well, I want my house clean. I mean...well clean. Ordered chaos would be nice. With the kids moving in (yeah, I know almost three years ago) I was never able to catch up and get proper again. Then with the almost move everything really got screwed up. So, we are sorta living out of boxes, kinda. I hate it. I've unpacked a ton too!
Unfortunately, it all belonged in the kitchen. lol
I don't usually do resolutions but I've thought of some. 2008 has been (hopefully) the culmination of all that has been shitty for the past 3.5 years. I want 2009 to be better.
I know the beginning is going to be rocky financially because we are still squaring away all the house mess. (I *still* don't know if the other house is keeping our money or what...I e-mailed the realtor and nothing. I fear she's trying to hold off until after the holidays.) One post I wanted to write but haven't yet is about how this house (even in boxes) is still *home*. I don't feel like I lost much even though the other house was beautiful. I guess I just feel like I lost a lot of money. lol BUT, I see now that holy cow! we have money! and I need to figure out where it is going. I mean...we lost a lot and it came from somewhere... *looking around suspiciously*
If the kids didn't have their disorders, if the house wasn't in such a .... neighborhood. Everything would be perfect. So to me, that means home is perfect. I don't know...maybe we will see about making this house bigger or doing some other improvements in 2009. We do have a half acre to play with. Maybe we can just plant trees and shut the neighborhood out? lol Who knows?
But I do know things need to change and they need to get better.
So, I'll be back with pictures (tons of pictures...lol) I know, I keep saying I will add them but I mean it. I just need to crop them and name them and fix the glare or the red eye...lol I'm still getting used to the new camera. I am so happy that it doesn't just shut off like the old one did.
I will be in denial about being sick and I will press on.
Things are going to get better.
